| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 15/07/2008 |
| Date of Death | 15/07/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,698 since 23/11/2009 |
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My Angel Babies.
This is a way to remember the little babies that have come into my life but could not stay.
The first little bean.
I remember being so shocked at being pregnant but as quickly as I got my head round it, you were gone at 8 weeks pregnancy. I was at work when I started to bleed, it was sad. I cried a lot.
The next two, came together, Poppy and Alfie.
I was a bit confused with my dates and having had a previous miscarriage I was scared to believe in the pregnancy. But slowly by slowly I got used to the hard bump on my belly, the feeling of lying down at night in bed knowing that there was life inside of me. I would place my hand on my belly and dream and knew that something wonderful had happened to me. Life had been difficult but the grace of this pregnancy brought sanctuary. These babies were created with such passion and love from their mum and dad. A little secret garden of life.
I remember standing in the shower and feeling my waters break. Then not soon after, after much pain a perfect baby girl, Poppy, with a hand still clasped came into the world. We wrapped her in tissue and went to the hospital. I was told it was a complete miscarriage and no further treatment needed. I was booked for a scan in a weeks time to see if the contents of my womb was empty. But 2 days later I was rushed back in as the undetected little Alfie had also died.
The next pregnancy in July 2009
Ended at 8 weeks pregnancy, poor little bean. I miss them all as much.
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ORIGINAL EULOGY - ( I wrote this in grief after my third miscarriage)
I loved you so much .You kept me so warm and happy in my belly.
I will never forget you.
You gave me everything, I am so lucky to have been your mum.
When I saw you I was amazed at how special you are.
You were created in love and everything we did for you was because of our love for you.
Your dad loves you too, he always remembers you. He really loves you
21 weeks i kept you close to me. I will always love you from a far xx
All my angel babies, tiny one 8 weeks Feb 2008 and tiny two 8 weeks July 2009 also remembered here with all my love xxx
Always all my love x
ღ ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ ღ
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*ღ.......ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ.......ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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‘Twas The Night Before Christmas - For Bereaved Parents
Twas the night before Christmas, and I dreaded the day,
That I knew I was facing - The holiday craze.
The stores were all filled, with holiday lights,
In hopes of drawing customers by day and by night.
As others were making their holiday plans,
My heart was breaking, I couldn’t understand.
I had lost my dear child a few years before,
And I knew what my holiday, had in store.
When out of no where, there arose such a sound,
I sprang to my feet, and was looking around.
Away to the window, I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters, and threw up the sash.
The sight that I saw, took my breath away,
And my tears turned to smiles, in the light of the day.
When what, to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a cluster of butterflies, fluttering near.
With beauty and grace, they performed a dance,
I knew in a moment, this wasn’t by chance.
The hope that they gave me, was a sign from above,
That my child was near me, and that I was loved.
The message they brought me, was my holiday gift,
And I cried when I saw them, in spite of myself.
As I knelt closer to get a better view,
One allowed me to pet it, as if it knew.
That I needed the touch of it’s fragile wings,
To help me get through the holiday scene.
In days that followed, I carried the thought,
Of the message the butterflies left in my heart.
That no matter what happens, or what days lie ahead,
Our children are with us, they’re not really dead.
Yes, the message of the butterflies, still rings in my ears,
A message of hope - A message so dear.
And I imagined they sang, as they flew out of sight,
To all bereaved parents - We love you tonight XX
╔╦╗╔═╔╗╔╗║║ ' ' ' ' ' ╔ ║║╔╗╦ ╔╗ ╦ ╔╦╗╔╗╔╗
║║║╠═╠╝╠╝╚╣ ' ' ' ' ' ║ ╠╣╠╝║ ╚╗ ║ ║║║╠╣╚╗
║║║╚═╠╗╠╗╚╝ ' ' ' ' ' ╚ ║║╠╗╩ ╚╝ ║ ║║║║║╚╝
time
It's been so long now and I still miss you and think that you would all have contributed to make this world a better place.
It really doesn't get easier. I still think of you every day. I still regret not protecting you better.
But life chooses it's way to decide how long we all stay.
My life will always feel lonely will feel lonely without you but your soul will live on as part of me and who knows maybe one day I'll have a healthy baby that will hold your souls too.
Mummy xx
Step into the light of my gaze,
I love you 'til my heart gets sore,
You and I lost in serenity,
Bring back the best in me.
It's time to let go of our rocky past,
To create a future that's meant to last.
I'm sorry when we point our fingers,
I'm sorry that your pain still lingers.
Let's live tomorrow like our first day,
Let's do this all again the right way.
We've reached the last page of doom,
Look! We'll reach the clearing soon.
Step into the light of my gaze,
Let me love you a million ways.
Get lost in my kisses on your skin,
I wish I could touch your skin
This is the part where we both win.
We've finally reached heavens gate,
Here at last it was worth the wait.
I love you 'til my heart gets sore,
And I don't wanna fight any more.
Because I love you far too much
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t happens so violently,
Yet it can be so silent.
One minute your world can be perfect,
Then the next everything falls to pieces.
People say it happens for a reason,
Yet they can never tell me why.
They say he is in a better place,
But was it so horrible here?
They say God is great,
God is good.
Then why does he hurt me so?
All the pain in the world cant compare,
All Ive felt in my past,
All the trials and tribulations Ive delt with,
I wish it all back,
Instead of what I feel now.
Im to sad to cry,
More angry at Something I cant explain.
I want to blame it on Myself,
But I know I cant....
I feel so confused,
So helplesss.
So missused
It goes to show,
That life is so unexcpected,
That you have to hold every moment
So dear to your heart,
And remember everything wonderful.
His perfect smile...
His beautiful blue eyes...
The way he stares just earning to learn...
Ill hold them close,
And never let go.
love
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Angels inside Me
by *Obsidian-Nightfall
Angels inside Me
The angels in reality are boys
And not the little cherubs
Of greeting card dogma,
They wear a knotted birth chord
As a natural halo
It floats above their feathered hair
Light as summers grass.
Their doctrine wings were stolen
By their fallen brothers
From old dying eagles
No longer able to use
The gift they had been given
Of which all men covert.
We pull the angel babies,
With warm and naked grace
To our imperfect breast
And the story ends
On my childhood angel
Wishing I was a woman
Wishing I was a man.
With love xxx
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